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Wednesday, 22 June 2011

  • something so small, like the hourly beep of his wristwatch - to think that even that might disappear.

    something so important, like his arms around me - the thought that that has disappeared (but just last night...), maybe for good.

    what have i done.

Friday, 13 May 2011

  • every time i am a half-step away from asking for help, i somehow always convince myself that i can do it on my own if i just hold on a little bit longer.

    i hold on and the feeling passes until the next time rolls around and i am back here again.

    i do need help. i can't keep coming back here.

  • sleep don't sleep

    work don't work

    eat don't eat

    stay don't stay

    go don't go

    come don't come

    a not a, b not b

    whichever one, it's always the wrong one.

    bipolar friend used to worry that his judgment was off when he tried to make decisions, because he might be influenced by his disorder. so he'll get other people's opinions on whether or not he was doing the right thing.

    i'll probably get there at some point. bipolar. with asperger's.